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September 7th, 2008 (11:44 am)

Still half blind and struggling to write this.
Small tumor, they are going to leave it alone.
Falling apart, Ithink.
The baby is thriving, we named him Sterling.

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not over yet...

August 20th, 2008 (08:49 pm)


30 Delmar Upper
Tonawanda, NY

Here we are.
In pieces.

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If you...

June 26th, 2008 (08:55 am)

current location: Moms computer room
current mood: defeated
current song: none ipod lost in fire

If you love me...

If you care about me...

If I can contact you...

Please contact me.

I want to tell everyone myself. I want to talk to you all. Please call me at 716-695-9026. NO CALLS AFTER 8:30 PM!!! No exceptions. Get it from me before the rumor mill eats me.

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June 24th, 2008 (10:35 am)

current mood: sad

I am deeply saddened by the death of one of the finest comedians of our time. George Carlin was a fantastic showman. May your memory live on.

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June 11th, 2008 (12:53 pm)

The demolition is done. We raked up the last of the debris this morning at 7:30. Goodbye home. Welcome oblivion, a faceless apt. with no soul like our home had. Grieving can end now. Why won't it? I am so broken right now. Passively saddened by our losses. We got the new apartment but there is no soul, just bones. Goodbye children. Goodbye Sphinx. Goodbye Dragon. Goodbye Poppy Jasper. Hello nothing, no family just us. That should be enough for us but it isn't. We mourn our stripped nakedness. Hollowed out, scorched and sweaty, ashen bodies. Let this Midsummer cleanse us all.

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From John

June 7th, 2008 (09:17 pm)

Leave a comment and tell me something you dislike about me that you would not normally tell me. In return I will:
A) tell you why I friended you,
B) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc.,
C) tell you something I like about you,
D) tell you a memory I have of you,
E) ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
F) tell you my favorite user pic of yours,
G) in return, you must post this in your LJ, but only if you want to.

keepersrosered [userpic]

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June 2nd, 2008 (09:32 am)

current location: My Mothers house
current mood: Angished
current song: Winter- Tori Amos

I have been ripping my home apart with my bare hands for days now.

I feel like Dante. "I'm not even supposed to be here!"

So many things are breaking my heart right now.

My babies are gone.
My home is gone.
My life is gone. (But Nathan is here thank Goddess.)
I lost some friends yesterday I think, by my rash and terrible actions.
Every time someone says you me "look what I found!" holding some melted part of my life in their sooty hands.
Loving Laine is hurting.
My Sparrow and others are so far away.
Gabby is a true Christian and I am proud to call her a friend.
I now have the gift of art and creativity.
I smiled at Gabby she smiled back, and hugged me.
Independent health dropped me, talking to them today to see if i can pick them up again.
My dad is doing a night scape painting for the new house for us it is stunning.
I need help from someone but terrified to ask.
Petrov made me sad the other day.

"Lady bug, ladybug, fly away home. Your children are gone, your house is on fire."

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May 23rd, 2008 (05:54 pm)

I'm still here, whatever that means.

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May 13th, 2008 (11:33 am)

I feel terrible that I'm not there while they pull down the trailer but I'm not stable enough. Too sad, too drugged, too blahhhhhhhhhhh. fuck me.

keepersrosered [userpic]

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May 7th, 2008 (10:41 pm)
current location: Moms computer room

At approximately 7:30 tonight we buried our children Dragon and Sphinx. They are at final peace and rest.

Our home is gone and our children are gone. I feel like I'm dying slowly.

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